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[May. 18th, 2009|12:13 am] |
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HEY- I know I haven't updated in 21 weeks, and who knows how long before that..
I am only on here as a last ditch-effort to help save my cat Buddy from a carcinogenic tumor that he has already had two surgeries on, and yet it is unstoppable, and continues to grow. He got the cancer from a rabies shot 2 1/2 years ago, we didn't notice the tumor till August 2008, and didn't end up getting it checked until December, which by then we didn't schedule the surgery for another 3 months because I couldn't pay for it.
Well, I made a few payments towards the first 2 surgeries, and am paying off the rest with the money I raised on Buddy's old fundable. BUT-He is getting surgery this Wednesday as a last attempt to rid the cancer from his little 11 pound, 3 year old body. HIS BACK LEG IS GETTING AMPUTATED!!! There is nothing more they can do without damaging his leg function so it's our last chance. The are hoping to be able to keep his hip bone on that side for balance.. I am nervous because originally, removing his leg would not have helped because the tumor went up very high, which was the dangerous part that could enter his internal organs.. they think they got all of the high part of the cancer, either that or it is just not growing back as fast as the lower parts.. I really hope they did get it all, because sacrificing Buddy's leg is not worth it if he is just going to die anyway, it is too traumatic.
We need about $221 MINIMUM (after fundable fees) to pay for buddy's 3rd surgery/amputation. Obviously, despite having like 1,000 friends on MySpace, either no one reads my posts or no one cares, so I am hoping I can reach out to people who may actually give a shit and could pledge $10 towards it.
Animal Trustees is giving me a lot more time to come up with the money, even though the surgery is THIS FUCKING WEDNESDAY! I AM NOT READY! Usually you have to pay half down the day of the surgery, but since they know my efforts of Buddy's last fundable to pay off my balance was successful, and my financial situation is horrible yet I would do ANYTHING for Buddy, they are giving me as much time as I need. They also fell in love with Buddy though!
I'm not religious at all but I would like to be, it's just not that easy. But I will still try to pray for Buddy this Wednesday, I am really, really scared. We could use your prayers too, even if you are not religious. Buddy is as much a part of my family as any human member, so this is very serious to me.
Here is the website if you can pledge $10 (the minimum), I would never forget it, and once I am better-off, would help you if you ever needed it like I do right now, like Buddy does right now.
http://www.fundable.com/groupactions/groupaction.2009-05-12.6558362278
here is his MySpace if you want to add Buddy:
http://www.myspace.com/buddybooneedshelp
Me and Buddy <3 love love love <3 you! >^..^<
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[Dec. 7th, 2008|12:42 pm] |
pretty crazy. i don't like the internet anymore sorry if anyone actually cares what ive been up to here in austin.
phew. so much has happened i'm not even going to bother, so you will have no idea what i'm talking about.
jenni is moving out into her new place today. glad we could let her crash here for a month in between apartments, since our last roomate, tessa, got up and left one day while we were at work and we came home to an empty house, and not even a note. she was the oldest of us all, 24, yet not that mature? i'm now 23 and carly is only 19, but she is a cool punk chick. i have to shave her head every week or so, she has a mohawk. not the brightest one in the bunch but i still love her.
so much for finding all of my roomates on craigslist. actually found the next one there too!
her name is krissi and she is deaf, well, "hearing impaired" b/c she can hear alittle with her hearing aid in if you are talking in the direction of the ear it's in. she is kindof punk too and 24 and is so super sweet. i've been talking to her for awhile through texts but we only mett her once so far. i'm actually really excited about her moving in. i want to learn sign language now too, although she can hear us if we are right there.
oh, by the way, we live in this badass old 3 bedroom house in south austin right off south congress, we have a huge, fenced in backyard with aluminum siding for privacy, a cute shed someone could actually live in (cuz it has electric hookups) and our own shed for the washer and dryer. it's so nice to live in a house again instead of an apartment! except they never fix anything here...
and we don't have heat still! and it's been going down to the 40s and 30s at night recently, it sucks big time. at least i will be ready for new jersey when i come home for christmas!
shit, i would love to keep rambling but i have to shower and whatnot, i have finals and work this whole week FUCK!
only 2 more finals to go at least..
st. edwards is really fucking hard but i fucking love it <3
so i am still alive, okay? and colin and i are still (somehow)together! it will be 5 years in april...... isn't that fucking insane???
bye! |
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[Jul. 15th, 2007|11:05 pm] |
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i know i keep vanishing, but here is the scoop:
colin and i just got approved for our first apartment (w/o a co-signer) so everything is completely on us, no more mommy and daddy holding our hand. i'm scared shitless, but this is the only way i can stay here with colin in austin.. i love austin.. i love colin.. i love money, too, but i can't have everything hehe.
so we move in august 3rd. we got a 2 bedroom.. i know, why would a couple get a 2 bedroom? we need our space. we still will sleep in the same bed, just not every night, and this way we won't get too sick of each other.
i will miss west campus, but i won't miss the rent. i will only be paying 325 plus bills, compared to almost 700 plus bills for a one bedroom.. it's on N. Lamar, so i won't be in the heart of the city anymore, only 10 mins away still
we will be in austin till about january, so far that's the plan anyways. colin is going to take a semester here this fall, and then, most likely, we will be moving back to jersey... we've lived in austin for over 2 1/2 years... can you believe it?
i get my associates degree next month yay!
the end. for now. |
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[Dec. 6th, 2006|03:43 am] |
thought i should let you know that colin passed his GED, so he has his high school diploma finally! so i'm not dating a "loser" anymore (in his words..). but i always knew he was smart.
so this means he is gonna start college in the spring, we'll be going to the same school yay! except that its gonna be my last year and then ill be going somewhere else.. eh... don't know where yet, if i can pull off a 3.0 average i can get into UT, but its gonna be tough. i did just complete my "A" paper for comp 2, it took 4 hours. so who knows.
i hate school. test thursday, final draft paper due monday, 2 test on tuesday, final on wednesday, and 2 finals of thursday. then im done, but this coming week will be hell.
the end. |
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[Nov. 10th, 2006|03:37 am] |
my birthday is tomorrow, well... less than 24 hours. ill finally be 21.
... and no one back home remembered. im for serious. but its okay.
ill write more tomorrow or the next day, if im not too drunk/hungover. |
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[Sep. 14th, 2006|02:37 am] |
this is buddy. he is swell.. sometimes.
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[Sep. 13th, 2006|06:07 pm] |
so my day didnt start out too great cause i was almost late to school again cause colin never showed. i was pissed, but he is pretty unreliable.
so then, school went okay, and i was walking home on the drag and first off, i got a free energy drink "coolah" or some shit. havent drank it yet.
then, i noticed 101 x was letting people spin some wheel for prizes on the street, so i took my turn and won "staff's choice" and they let me pick whatever i wanted, so i picked 2 tickets to see POLYPHONIC SPREE tmr at emo's! the other prizes were like the new garbage cd and movie tickets and t-shirts and stickers, so i think i made a good choice.
im gonna see if colin will go with me, but if not, im taking joya. i would totally take gavi if he wasnt all the way in jersey.
so things have been good today. realllllly good. |
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[Aug. 19th, 2006|10:55 pm] |
IM HOME YAY IM HOME HOORAY UH HUH OKAY>
call me <3 |
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[Aug. 7th, 2006|01:40 pm] |
dont worry. im getting internet soon.
anyways......
less than 2 weeks ill be home, yaya!
went to a party on saturday at taos co-op. danced with a bunch of gay guys who were making out with each other. everyone kept talking to me, its always "i LOVE your hair!" and stuff... blah.
okay i have to go to class soon so i just thought id say hi and stuff because you know....
<3 |
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[Jul. 10th, 2006|10:23 pm] |
okay im coming home saturday, august 19th till the following friday and im bringing joya:
(we both look different)
so if you want to see us u gotta make plans ahead of time cause we got a tight schedule. text me or message me and ill get it before we go. see you all in a month <3 |
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[May. 17th, 2006|05:39 pm] |
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i saw art school confidential with laurel and jenni 2 nights ago at the alamo draft house.. it was really good. i liked it because im an art major and all the sterotypes are TRUE in every way. the critics made me giggle. you should see it, unless youre a total closed-minded snob, then dont see it, and dont read this. stop reading it... |
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[May. 17th, 2006|05:24 pm] |
i smell like pizza.
but its okay.
i like my new job. austin's pizza is in my top 5 pizza places for sure. and i get to eat it all the time. yay.
hmm.... what did i do this week? work, moved out some stuff, signed my new lease, all that bullcrap... its so fucking weird how i wouldve never been able to deal with end of semester/new job/moving out by myself, i wouldve needed mommy to hold my hand. its fucking crazy how self-reliant i am, it feels great.. now only if i was financially independent.. but 6.50 plus tips isnt enough to survive on.
colin has been a huge help recently, i woulnt have anything moved out without him...
im still terrified to leave cornerstone.. this is the 2nd place ive ever lived MY ENTIRE LIFE and its going to really be hard adjusting..
and the fact that like 90% of all of my friends in austin live in my apartment complex will make me all lonely and like, boooo..
okay, gotta go, jacci is on her way over. she misses me <3 then maybe nap. |
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[Mar. 5th, 2006|09:56 pm] |
ouch.
life is so frustrating.
i couldnt find anyone to go see the vagina monologues with me, and i ended up lending colin my last 20$ because he NEEDED it or something, so i couldnt go anyways. and i really need to do laundry and i need contact solution, but fuck it i guess. i have to wait till after school tmr cause i had to cancel my other bank card because colin took it and i freaked out that i left it somewhere.. grr..
but i did end up going to a party at the co-op down the street.
some guy in daisy-dukes and a frilly black sweater without a shirt said we talked before. he's from philly or something, explains alot haha. im actually thinking about moving in there. i can have cats, and they cook all vegan food, included in your rent.. plus, you get youre own room.. all in westcampus, all for 475, even including the electric. my poor parents need alittle break. i can deal with living in a co-op, it might be fun. but then i wont be able to bitch about being lonely and having nothing to do.. hmm..
i just got off the phone with my mom again.. another convo of me crying about this or that,and how i want to go home for spring break if its not too late, and then her getting mad at something.. didnt help my headache but i feel so much better. she suggested (liek always) that i should go take a bath and relax. good advice. but yeah, theres like a 5% chance of me coming hoem for like 3-4 days, but probably not. i need a fucking vacation from this shithole. i feel like my brain is turning to mush and im wasting away... |
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[Feb. 23rd, 2006|02:01 pm] |
i have tendenitis in my shoulder. i cant even freakin write notes in class without searing in pain. this is bullshit. topical ointment that cost 45 dollars (because the area is too small for a steroid shot) and ultracets that i cant even take because they react badly with zoloft. this is balls.
gotta go to class now. i have my own note takers at least, yay! |
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[Feb. 21st, 2006|12:47 pm] |
new strokes cd = exactly what i was expecting, but still amazing.
not as many hit songs but more electric guitar and experimentation.
this way of life is getting old. im getting old. im gonna be 21 by the end of this year and have my associates, then going back to philly to go to university of the arts. i just have to figure out if i want to finish my associates here or just jet now. but it would be really hard to just jet now. but hey, i am coming home in the next year, yay! i might live in philly instead of south jersey.. we'll see.
everyone around me including myself has this slow, gloomy depression hanging over our heads. i think its the weather. if its in the 40s-50s, no one wants to leave their apartment. it sucks.
hey, i will beat anyone in soul calibur. i kick ass at that game. lets just hope i dont become one of those scary, fat, smelly goth kids who live at the arcade... sad. |
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[Feb. 21st, 2006|04:04 am] |
i just dont know what to do.
i dont knwo what you want me to.
should i talk about music? should i talk about love? girls? drugs? or parties?
i should talk about somethign i know.
girls and fashion.
i shoudl tell you about my shoes collection even if you just dont care.
arent you the one looking at womens bodies walking down the street?
you like girls, you have to knwo about fashion too.
and thats the way it is. |
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[Nov. 26th, 2005|10:06 pm] |
okay, so i got some groceries.. and some smokes, and finished my laundry.. walked the drag today, staring down all the crust punks that are the general bums in this area. i feel like im looking over my shoulder now, waiting to see that douche bag again who broke into my place.. the only fucking place i feel safe in. and i dont know what i would do if i saw him again...
colin left again. we cant be around each other right now. he said he'll be home later, but im tired of sitting on my ass all day.
i think getting trashed is my only gameplan for the night.. its about time we all start drinking MORE, dont you think?
by the way.. ive been selling shit on ebay, but i dont know how you would find me.. my ebay name is wastingaway85 too, if that helps. BY MY SHIT!
ps. im declaring a minor... FASHION!! it seems to be a decent fall back plan, and something ive just naturally been good at.. *COUGH COUGH* im so MODEST haha.. things really arent that bad, just alot worse than theyve been.. i think everyone who lives here needs to come home, im dying of boredom. |
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[Nov. 26th, 2005|12:27 am] |
I ALMOST GOT ROBBED AND RAPPED AND KILLED!! while i was in my apartment sleeping.
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so i woke up yesterday around 4:30 to my apartment door being ajar, and jenny's head poking through.. so i thought colin mightve missed work, so i was calling his name and i starting walking upstairs and someone was like "hello?" OH FUCKING SHIT!
i walked up, there was some big black kid sitting in my loft "WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?!" i shrieked. "Im here for the party..." he kept saying.. "WHAT PARTY??!!!! GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY APARTMENT!" so he grabs his backback and leaves, but i look on my counter to see the digital camera that i thought was stolen this WHOLE TIME and it was gone, so i go back outside and say "DID YOU FUCKING STEAL MY CAMERA"... "..yeah" he says "GET THE FUCK BACK HERE OR IM CALLING THE COPS" so he actually walks back upstairs and hestitantly empties his backpack, while i grab the dvds/x-box games and paintmarkers he also stole.. then he tried to give me a candy bar.. and i gave it back and sarcastically said "uhm, happy thanksgiving.." as he walked away.
WHAT THE FUCK!
later, we got drunk and ate a small diner with the 2 other neighbors home and 2 of my gay friends, andy and corey. it was a good time. i gave thanks to not getting raped and killed, and so did colin, even though he just left me home all day and ditched me for fucking adam, FUCKING ADAM, AGAIN! his bestfriend from backhome called me tonite and seriously asked me if he was gay, cause he heard it from someone they both know, and im starting to wonder.. but im sure its just for the hope of an opiate, im so sick of drugs.. so fucking sick of what it does to people, of how horrible it can make someone. if i had a fucking dollar for how many times a drug has broke my heart, id be a fucking millionaire.
on top of that, im broke, i dont even have fucking toilet paper, and the only thing left to eat is ramen noodles.. every appliance in my apartment is broken, everyone around me is addicted to drugs, which means they care more about getting their fix than the people who really care about them, and my mom wants me to move home in a week if things dont get better.. but i cant make them better, i need help, i dont have a car to get groceries, i dont have money, and now im like having panic attacks today after some random black kid was IN my fucking apartment stealing shti while i was FUCKING SLEEPING!! and now colin just ditched me, well fuck, i guess moving home is my best option at this point.. this is bullshit.
this world is so unfair sometimes. you can be sitting on top of it, laughing in its face, and then its foundation crumbles because someone fucked you up on a simple surgery, and you loose your semester, and your fucking cool ass job at a headshop, and suddenly youre scared to leave you apartment cause youre not used to being out in public, and then BAM someone breaks in and you dont feel safe anywhere...
well at least im still hot. and my kitties are okay... things could be worse.
i really want to come home at this point.. |
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